Diary Series #2: Is this really happening!?

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Obviously this is not the actual flight path … but you get the idea.

In just over a months time, having flown for 22 hours, crossed three continents and covered just over 10,000 miles, I will have finally arrived alone at Adelaide Airport.

Oh f*ck.

It’s normal to be absolutely terrified right? After-all, I will be leaving a stable job, good friends and a loving family behind. Bye-bye comfort zone …

My work colleagues often remind me of this reality; “Not long until you’re wrestling with Crocodiles Marky boy”

Sigh.

I can only pretend to be excited as my anxieties politely remind me of the mammoth adventure ahead. Am I doing the right thing? Will I be lonely? What if I run out of money?

I guess this is what it’s all about. I’m leaving my nice, safe and familiar comfort zone in search of personal growth, Independence and adventure, It’s only natural to feel these anxieties.

The last few months have been a roller coaster of emotions, many ups and many downs. The reality of leaving my job has hit me harder than I thought it would. It’s going to be difficult to say goodbye to the people I’ve seen almost everyday for the past two and a half years and as much as work sucks, I’ve made some great friends along the way and I’ve learned some valuable life skills.

My darkest low came when my girlfriend and I decided to go our separate ways. As heartbroken as I was, I knew deep down it was a sensible decision for the both of us. I had previously written about the worries of leaving a loved one behind, and to be honest, I’m relieved neither of us have to face the challenge of being 10,000 miles apart.

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Me and my car right now.

To add to my stresses, my car decided it wanted to give me 99 problems. To some of you this may seem like a small issue, but as I drive 50 miles to work and back you can imagine why I started pulling my hair out when the clutch began to slip, my exhaust started to disintegrate and the vibration through the steering wheel became severe enough to trigger an 8.0 on the Richter scale.

Fecking thing. I really can’t afford to spend any money on it either, after-all every penny counts for a budget traveller. I’m just praying it’s going to last me one more month! It feels ever so similar to the scene from The Pirates Of The Caribbean where Captain Jack Sparrow elegantly steps from the main mast onto the jetty as his ship sinks.

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For those of you who care, I own a 1996 Mazda MX5.

I guess what I’m trying to say is; I’ve let my emotions, stresses and anxieties tower over me for the past few months and they have somewhat spoiled the reality that I’m about to do one of the most exciting and memorable trips of my life. But as we all know, in life there are ups and downs and at this moment in time I feel as If I’ve come out of this low point and I’m rocketing towards something great. As I finish crossing off all the bits on my “Travel To Do List” I can finally feel the excitement and anticipation building and I’m motivated more than ever to conquer this challenge and make this an unforgettable experience.

I’m going to travel the world, and I’m f*cking buzzing!

Thanks for reading, love to you all.

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